Why do I speak my mind when I know it will cause others to be unhappy?
Why am I so self centered and jealous?
Why do I sabotage my own happiness?
Why can't I put other's feelings first?
Why do I choke the life out of that which I love?

....Why do I do all this when it is plainer than day that I am deeply cared for and trusted?

Run/Walk::Walk
Distance Traveled:: 3.8 miles
Time:: Didn't time myself
Weather:: Windy, Slightly Rainy
Pain:: None!

Overall Mood:: Happy
School Work:: Studied for Map tests

Breakfast:: Half Naan w/egg, cheese, spinach, panchetta
Snack:: Fruit Leather, Trail mix (Peanuts, cashews, raisins)
Lunch:: Cliff bar
Snack:: Cornmeal muffin top
Dinner:: Chicken Tamales & Spinach
Drinks:: Apple juice (2 glasses), Milk, (1 glass), water
Other:: 2 Chocolate Chip Cookies, 1 chip-less cookie

Note to self::
Do not bake cookies while on a diet

Run/Walk:: Ran to the grocery store... I have no clue how far that is.
Time:: 15min including waiting in the check out line
Weather:: Cold
Pain:: Right shin

Overall Mood:: Sleepy
School Work:: Finished paper, studied for map tests

Breakfast:: 1/2 piece of naan topped with one egg, spinach, cheddar cheese, and panchetta
Snack:: Corn Bread Muffin Top
Lunch:: Hummus and whole wheat pita
Snack:: Trail mix (raisins, cashews, peanuts)
Dinner:: Baby Spinach Salad, Lobster Ravioli, Hummus and Whole Wheat pita
Drinks:: Water, Unfiltered apple juice (3 glasses)
Other:: 1 mini York Peppermint patties

I feel old.

... people (pedestrians, bicycles, skateboards, etc) would learn to hug right and pass on the left.

... outside voices would be reserved for the outside.

... people would not stand in huge groups in the stair wells/hall ways.

... essays would write themselves.

... I had a Bugatti Veyron.

... people would let me know where they know me from when they friend me.

Do you ever just want to tell everyone to bugger off and that you can do things at your own pace in your own way? That is how I feel today.


Also, I think men are more gossip bugs than women are. /fail on their part.

Grab the nearest book.
* Open it to page 56.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post the text of the next few sentences.
* Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.


:"Thou hast no end to gain - no heart to break -
Castiglione like who said he loved -
Thou true - he false! - false! - false!"

"Scenes from 'Politian'" in The complete Tales and Poems of Edgar Allan Poe

(I keep it under my monitor to prop it up so it is more at eye level)

So, at the beginning of the month I was at Uwajimaya and I noticed on the boarded up stall where I knew Beard Papa's was soon to be that there was a sign saying they were looking for part time and full time employees. I emailed them and a week went by without a reply, then the owner, Tony, sends me an email with the application pdf attached saying there was a meeting and to bring my application in the next day. I do so and the woman says she will call me over the weekend. She doesnt call. That week I email her asking whats happening and she says they were behind schedule so I wait some more and another week goes by and I get sick and forget about the whole thing. Then, today I go to buy food at uwajimaya and buy food for school and notice they are open and my heart sinks into my stomach, I didnt get the job. Mother tells me to email the woman one last time and as I am getting ready to email her my cellphone rings. I thought it was a friend of mine asking what was up for this next week, but no, it was Tony..... I go in for training tomorrow!!!

YAY! I have a job! Which means I can buy more dolls and a puppy and more stuff I dont need!!! =D

Portal - Still Alive typography from Trickster on Vimeo.


Portal: Prelude Official Trailer from NykO18 on Vimeo.

+nose bleed+

I think this time I want a boyfriend who showers me with love and flowers instead of food and random non-flower gifts.

Jer's plane leaves for japan in less than an hour.
Wednesday he said I would be able to see him once more before he left so I could say "Good Bye"
Well, the bastard lied. All I got were two test messages. Not even a phone call.

I'm currently avoiding any sort of social interweb communication. Emails, Facebook, LJ, etc are all being ignored. Major update at the end of next week and will reply to comments, messages, etc then. If anything important needs my attention please email me at manaa (AT) mac (DOT) net

kthxbai

oh my god... as I was falling asleep I heard some scraping sound.. "scrape, scrape, scrape" It was as if the wind was moving one of the posters on my wall.... but there was no breeze so I poke at it and a spider comes crawling out....... then i realize there are a TON of smaller spiders EVERYWHERE so I start smashign themthen realize there must be a nest behind the poster so I ter the poster down and throw it on the floor. I kill all the rest on the wall only to see the ones on the poster have taken over one of my lolita petticoats O_O so the poster and the petti are in the bath tub and the mother spider is about to be flushed down the drain...... not a fun way to start the week.

Have you ever gotten home at 2am and been too exhausted to make your bed because the sheets were washed earlier in the day? This always happens to me. The sheets are never washed on days where I am home all day XD