I'm useless.

Why do I speak my mind when I know it will cause others to be unhappy?
Why am I so self centered and jealous?
Why do I sabotage my own happiness?
Why can't I put other's feelings first?
Why do I choke the life out of that which I love?

....Why do I do all this when it is plainer than day that I am deeply cared for and trusted?

T-6 Days... Yummm.. Coookies...

Distance Traveled:: 3.8 miles
Time:: Didn't time myself
Weather:: Windy, Slightly Rainy
Pain:: None!

Overall Mood:: Happy
School Work:: Studied for Map tests

Breakfast:: Half Naan w/egg, cheese, spinach, panchetta
Snack:: Fruit Leather, Trail mix (Peanuts, cashews, raisins)
Lunch:: Cliff bar
Snack:: Cornmeal muffin top
Dinner:: Chicken Tamales & Spinach
Drinks:: Apple juice (2 glasses), Milk, (1 glass), water
Other:: 2 Chocolate Chip Cookies, 1 chip-less cookie

Note to self::
Do not bake cookies while on a diet

T-8 Days.... Hungry...

Run/Walk:: Ran to the grocery store... I have no clue how far that is.
Time:: 15min including waiting in the check out line
Weather:: Cold
Pain:: Right shin

Overall Mood:: Sleepy
School Work:: Finished paper, studied for map tests

Breakfast:: 1/2 piece of naan topped with one egg, spinach, cheddar cheese, and panchetta
Snack:: Corn Bread Muffin Top
Lunch:: Hummus and whole wheat pita
Snack:: Trail mix (raisins, cashews, peanuts)
Dinner:: Baby Spinach Salad, Lobster Ravioli, Hummus and Whole Wheat pita
Drinks:: Water, Unfiltered apple juice (3 glasses)
Other:: 1 mini York Peppermint patties

I wish...

... people (pedestrians, bicycles, skateboards, etc) would learn to hug right and pass on the left.

... outside voices would be reserved for the outside.

... people would not stand in huge groups in the stair wells/hall ways.

... essays would write themselves.

... I had a Bugatti Veyron.

... people would let me know where they know me from when they friend me.

(no subject)

Grab the nearest book.
* Open it to page 56.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post the text of the next few sentences.
* Don't dig for your favorite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.

:"Thou hast no end to gain - no heart to break -
Castiglione like who said he loved -
Thou true - he false! - false! - false!"

"Scenes from 'Politian'" in The complete Tales and Poems of Edgar Allan Poe

(I keep it under my monitor to prop it up so it is more at eye level)

Trick or Treat!

My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
butterflys_nest goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as Japanese School Girl.
battleroyalegrl gives you 19 yellow grapefruit-flavoured pieces of chewing gum.
blackfruitbat gives you 14 purple cherry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
dollykat gives you 5 purple banana-flavoured nuggets.
matto gives you 14 red-orange strawberry-flavoured pieces of taffy.
mizbelle gives you 8 light green spearmint-flavoured wafers.
mysteryaya gives you 2 pink orange-flavoured gummy bats.
ricenoodles tricks you! You get a dead frog.
thiswaltz gives you 2 pink raspberry-flavoured wafers.
turynn gives you 11 orange licorice-flavoured nuggets.
v_i_d_e gives you 18 red lime-flavoured jawbreakers.
butterflys_nest ends up with 93 pieces of candy, and a dead frog.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
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